My Story: Life with Two Chronic Illnesses

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living with two chronic illnesses

living with 2 chronic illnesses

Hello all, my name is Bethany. I am 19 years old and reside in London. I started Blogging as Young, Sick and Invisible when I was diagnosed with two chronic illnesses in the space of a year. My aim is to share my experiences and hopefully help those along their journey of being diagnosed, and help them to share their stories.

In March of 2017 I was diagnosed with Raynauds after getting chilblains (which hurt like hell). I couldn’t walk, couldn’t drive… so it was a sofa life for me for two months. After being diagnosed with Raynauds, I was later diagnosed with Erythromelalgia (EM) in October 2017, after my feet started swelling up red. The only way to describe the pain is like standing barefoot on a hot marble floor for an hour, even though you’ve literally only been standing for five minutes.

The easiest way I can describe what having both Raynauds and EM feels like is to think of being allergic to both hot and cold. My body’s thermostat is so wonky that being extremely hot or cold to me is like a normal temp for you.

During my October appointment, I was also told I had a positive ANA (Anti-nuclear antibody), which means that I have antibodies attacking my body. However, what they will become is unclear, as the reading isn’t positive enough (this can become Lupus, Scleroderma, Rheumatoid Arthritis and so on).

In April of 2018 I was told I also have GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease) after a weeks-long acid reflux. Medicine, however, has really helped, and I no longer feel like puking everywhere, nor do I have breastbone pain.

Before I was diagnosed, I used to love playing out with friends, cooking, running outside in all weathers – generally being a normal kid. Now I know I’m newly diagnosed, but Raynauds has affected my entire life. At first I thought I was just a weird cold kid that had severely sweaty hands. I had thought there were many things I wouldn’t be able to do, things that I will now excel in. Doing these things that may be tricky, but I should try my hardest, anyway.

I still cook, but it takes longer and requires multiple rests, I no longer go outside and hang out with friends or play, as the weather can completely throw my body clock off and cause me to sleep for over 13 hours.

Even though certain tasks can take me longer to complete, or drain my energy, I do still work. I have had two failed jobs, one in March of 2017 in a nursery. My boss there didn’t listen to me when I asked to get my coat when going to the playground (more factors were involved), but I left after a week. After looking for jobs for ages (which is hard in this day and age as so many jobs are looking for experienced people, and we are looking for experience resulting in no jobs), my mum found me a job in October of 2017 in a hairdresser salon. Most the employees there were lovely, but the tasks being thrown on top of each other got the better of me, and I’d leave crying and throbbing in pain, I left this job after five weeks.

Today, in May of 2018, I have been volunteering as admin/clerical in a hospital for three months – and I love it. No, I’m not getting paid, but the people there respect my needs and me, and I couldn’t ask for anything more.

While at work flares do come a lot, even though I sit down most of the day. My feet like to swell up and tighten in my shoes, causing blisters. I don’t mind having flares at home because I can strip back, wear no shoes, no socks and lounge in my pyjamas. Flares come and go, and it can all depend on stress, the weather and nearly everything in between.

Stress is a big one for me, as I struggle with anxiety and depression, which bring on many flares. In fact, last week it took me an hour to be able to take my shoes off because of EM, and then the swelling took three days to settle. With Raynauds I mostly go white, like corpse white. It has become a joke where I generally look dead all the time. My hands will be freezing no matter whether i’m wearing gloves thick socks, a scarf or hat.

As far as medicines go, I have tried a lot (now please don’t try these medicines without your doctor’s approval). First for Raynauds it was Nifedipine (didn’t work at all), next it was Losartan (also didn’t work), then I was given Loratadine (this is AMAZING, it stops all the itching that Raynauds and EM cause). My GP then put me on Fluoxetine (I’m not a massive fan of anti-depressants so gave it a miss). Right now all I take is the Loratadine and Omeprazole (for GERD).

My biggest tip for anyone who’s suffering is to never give up, I know it sounds cliché, but I really do mean it. I nearly gave up. Depression overtook me, and I was in a place where I didn’t see any light. What was a 19-year-old meant to do with two chronic illnesses ..? More destined to come and no friends ..? I felt like utter rubbish. It was only because of my parents that I am still here today. A simple ‘I am here for you’ really does so much, you have no idea.

If you need someone to talk to, I am here. We may not know each other, but you need to know there’s always someone there for you no matter what.

Yes, my illness has impacted my life negatively, massively. But I don’t give in, and I wont let my illness define me. I hope that in the future a cure will be made (I know it’s a big stretch). Even if there isn’t, I pray that a medicine will come out that will help us massively, will suppress most of our symptoms to make life even a tiny bit comfortable for all of us.

If you wish to get in touch, then please message me through my blog tagged at the beginning of the post, or connect with me through the Facebook groups below:

My Raynauds group:

https://www.facebook.com/groups/1696303983764543/

Or

My Illness/Disability group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1368100406622837/?ref=bookmarks

 

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